So I've been losing the war. Big surprise huh? Well, I won a major battle yesterday because I turned in the first 60 pages of Coal to my thesis director. Yes.. Yes... I did and I rock. And by Friday I should even be enrolled in thesis hours. Yeah it's a month late. But still.... I'll be enrolled and Resistance was trying real hard to win that battle:
Resistance: You're late once again and you should just give up.
Me: I've already put in so much work.
Resistance: Sunken costs <http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/sunk_costs> . Sunken costs. Just because you paid five dollars for a disgusting burger doesn't mean you should sit there and eat it if it's making you sick. Cut your losses and get on with your life.
Me: Well you make a good point. Hmmm, sunken costs.
Personally, I think I may have lost a bunch of battles over the past week, but I do believe I'm a lot closer to winning this battle. Yeah!
Ok, it 11:54. I'm finito. it took thirty minutes longer than yesterday because i was messing with utube and chatting with guy. tsk,, tsk... I missed the ten page mark, so the battle was mostly won by resistance. But i'll for sure win tomorrow's battle. MARk my words Resistance. I will not let you get away with such tyranny again.
so... I had a really good lunch date which extended to a really good date day, so got almost no work done today. I have a good feeling about this guy. I'll try not to think to negative.
It is now 10:33. I have atleast five pages to edit.
The battle is over and I have won it. It may have taken me an hour and a half to get fighting, but I won the battle. And it took less than an hour. I guess it helps that I've gone over this part before. I'm actually going over it once more before I give to Richard for a critique since the last section I sent him got so much red. --jeez--
since this was so easy. Plan for tomorrow is edit ten pages!!! 5 in the morn. 5 in the afternoon. And then ten pages of Sunday and we're set!!!
I have beat Resistance today. Let's see what tomorrow brings.
It is 10:28, and I opened the document. Yeah. Phase 1 is complete. wiat phase 1 isn't a good war term. how about .. i don't know. i just gotta get started.
curretnly listeiningn to Aaliyah (her last CD) with some kid cudi last single mixed in.
Battle results from yesterday: Saw my thesis director yesterday. He was really cool. I was doubting picking him as a thesis director, but now I'm feeling really blessed. He's very laidback (too laidback, I thought) but he may be the type of person I need to help me let go of my anxiety. I'm definitely gonna keep in contact with him this semester.
To do 1 : set up a FIRM date to send him an excerpt of the novel.
To do 2: Go see the dean to complete thesis enrollment on Monday!!!!
The Art of War Quote of the Day: There's a secret that real writers know that wannabe writers don't, and the secret is this: It's not the writing part that's hard. What's hard is sitting down to write. What keeps us from sitting down is Resistance.
Battle plan for the Day: Sit down and edit 5 pages.
UPDATE: It is 9:10 PM. I have yet to gear up and go into battle. I am going to make me a cup of coffee, gear up, and commence with the battle. Wish me luck!!
I am feeling uninspired. I'm getting over the flu, but even before that I've been feeling blah. I think it's the weather change56 (marked by the kids going back to school). I've been hyped all summer and now my body is wanting to slow down and hibernate. Which for me means I don't feel like putting together a decent outfit, or putting on make up, or getting up and going to work or doing my hair (GASP!!!). I don't feel like dating either.... All I want to do is sit outside or in my bed and read a book. Sigh.......
So in order to fight this blah feeling I'm going to name it "Resistance," a term I got from The War of Art by Steven Pressfield. I think the term especially applies because the thought of giving up on the PE and my thesis has also been in my mind.
In order to fight Resistance, I'm going to cite little passages from the book to help me wade through my funk of blah.
The War of Art Quotes of the Day: Most of Us have two lives. The life we live, and the unlived life within us. Between the two stands Resistance.
So what am I going to do to beat Resistance today? I'm going to email my thesis paper to the director. I have a long list of other things I need to do, but I'm gonna start out slow.